Previously
It has been long time, though it doesn’t really mean to me, the condition doesn’t show any sign of ebbing. I wish I could delete the feelings for you.
Mind has not changed its purpose but it has changed its course, the way of looking into the matter. Earlier it was the sky of autumn; sometime cloudy, sometime clear sky, now it’s the sky after a heavy rain; clear blue sky where there is no trace of cloud. Now it feels lighter in my heart after being certain that what was not mine, will not be mine ever. Also I took no pain to admit that the esteem for you in my mind has multiplied few times seeing such dedication towards your belief and not for being distracted by me.
Expectation, which drives us crazy, is the main perpetrator for all kind of pain. If we don’t achieve what we expect, it is translated into pain, frustration or negative feelings. But what, if there is no expectation and you don’t change your course of action or your work or your feelings, there is no question of bad feeling or disappointment. I have preferred to follow this way which not only has kept my heart occupied, but also multiplied my endurance limit. Now I really enjoy my feelings, the feeling which I feel looking at you, perceiving your presence, smelling your perfume, noticing your activities and above all perceiving your existence around all my thoughts, without the feel of any expectation.
Love; I adore this subject matter more than anything in my life no matter in which form it comes to me. I can love anyone I wish but it’s not that she also has to love me. What I have learnt in this course of life is that love is not about gaining or losing something it’s about a great feeling without any anticipation or better it’s a Sweet-Beautiful-Soft-Melancholy tune which you can perceive but you can’t hold it or control it, it’s intangible.
Caution: This is just my imagination not a true story.
It has been long time, though it doesn’t really mean to me, the condition doesn’t show any sign of ebbing. I wish I could delete the feelings for you.
Mind has not changed its purpose but it has changed its course, the way of looking into the matter. Earlier it was the sky of autumn; sometime cloudy, sometime clear sky, now it’s the sky after a heavy rain; clear blue sky where there is no trace of cloud. Now it feels lighter in my heart after being certain that what was not mine, will not be mine ever. Also I took no pain to admit that the esteem for you in my mind has multiplied few times seeing such dedication towards your belief and not for being distracted by me.
Expectation, which drives us crazy, is the main perpetrator for all kind of pain. If we don’t achieve what we expect, it is translated into pain, frustration or negative feelings. But what, if there is no expectation and you don’t change your course of action or your work or your feelings, there is no question of bad feeling or disappointment. I have preferred to follow this way which not only has kept my heart occupied, but also multiplied my endurance limit. Now I really enjoy my feelings, the feeling which I feel looking at you, perceiving your presence, smelling your perfume, noticing your activities and above all perceiving your existence around all my thoughts, without the feel of any expectation.
Love; I adore this subject matter more than anything in my life no matter in which form it comes to me. I can love anyone I wish but it’s not that she also has to love me. What I have learnt in this course of life is that love is not about gaining or losing something it’s about a great feeling without any anticipation or better it’s a Sweet-Beautiful-Soft-Melancholy tune which you can perceive but you can’t hold it or control it, it’s intangible.
Caution: This is just my imagination not a true story.
